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@ Dissident Sound
2025-04-24 17:49:52
yes so when we're fully awake our brain blocks out everything except what we're focusing on, like on typing this message for example
when we are asleep it's just random background noise that doesn't sting because it's just a kaleidoscope of dreams and fears but we know it's not real
but somewhere in the middle there is this hell where the things on your mind are real but the filer than normally blocks them out is down
let's say you're a woman whose husband beats the crap out of you all the time so you're constantly covered in bruises but yet you refuse to leave him because your brain manages to compartmentalize your thoughts in such a way that you can somehow rationalize his behavior away long enough to block those thoughts and switch your attention to something else ...
then at this nasty time before waking up suddenly you just see things how they really are - how other people see you - that your REAL situation is worse than the worst nightmare ...
sure when you are awake you can rebuild the distractions and compartmentalization and go back to your denial ... but you know what you saw was not a dream ... it was reality ... and what you're living is a fantasy