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@ dkpower
2024-12-05 13:31:48I still remember the day back in 2017 when my wife came through the front door at our apartment with a smile on her face mixed in with anxious eyes. She looked at me and simply uttered "I am pregnant!". My first instinct told me she was trying to pull a prank to see what I would do. As I stood there, silent, trying to determine the motive behind her abrupt announcement she uttered the phrase again with such assurance it would have been foolish of me to doubt her. I do not remember what I said or did next but I do remember sharing in her blend of excitement and uncertainty.
\ Today marks the passing of 5 years since the birth of our youngest and that same mix of emotions still resides in my heart. Excitement springs up and creates a smile on my face when I first see it on his and uncertainty creeps in when I doubt my ability as a father. As I look back on these past 5 years of raising my youngest son I can think of many occasions where God has used this mix of emotions to mold my wife and I into better parents. The fear found in the uncertainty of of our own abilities has pushed us to pursue God's wisdom over our own. The joy experienced from watching a little boy grow and discover the world around him has created a grateful heart in us both. I am forever thankful for God giving us him. He has been a true blessing for my wife and I. We did not set out to have him when we did, God in His holy wisdom gave him to us according to His will. 5 Years ago when we got to see his face for the first time, the face that caused my wife and I to experience such a mix of emotions, I would never have been able to conceive of the blessings that were yet to come. I am truly in awe of God's providence and wisdom. My wisdom, if I can even call it such, does not even stand to be seen in comparison. Every time I speak my son's name I am reminded...who is like God?