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@ Lululuna
2025-05-25 06:09:59
I totally relate to an internalised pressure of needing to know what I’m doing and to have a plan!! 😵💫
That can be our internalisation of the external macro world’s influence on us. Plus our brain loves to feel it has everything planned out! It likes to think that a plan = control. 😝
It’s funny isn’t it that FREEDOM brings CHOICE which can untether us but also have us feeling as though we have no direction?
That’s a feeling that comes with opening yourself up wide!!!!
We started homeschooling then sold our home, then hit the rode and my man and I both really struggled with a lot of internal dialogue around feeling like we were doing something not wrong but somehow not quite right either.
We both felt aimless and within that feeling a little lonely and out of our depths (within ourselves).
We’d been buying homes for two decades and to flip that on its head was strange.
I’m really all over the place! I also have no clear concept of what the next six months or next year looks like.
Freedom can be a funny thing.
It can invite us to second guess ourselves and to pressure ourselves to figure it all out. I have had to really dig deep to challenge myself on this one! My inner critic has had nothing but unkind things to say to me. Like:
“You never stick to anything.
Everyone must think you’re crazy.”
I’m a fully qualified therapist who has owned and designed two wellness centres (yes, the ego loves saying that). But right now, I’ve closed my books and taken a role that pays a fraction of what I used to earn—less in a full day than I once made in an hour. And yet, it feels right for this season.
I’m lying low, and the Free Market has given me the freedom to do just that. I’m not chasing income, pushing growth, or trying to make a mark. I’m allowing myself to slow down and be guided gently, instead of forcing the next thing into motion.
For two decades, I strived—working hard to earn more, be more, and get ahead. Now, I’m choosing to let that go.
You know what they say about PROGRESS ?
It goes:
Nothings happening.
Nothings happening.
STILL nothings happening.
Then 💥 BOOM 💥
You start ZOOMING!!!
Enjoy this space, you are building internally, so it’s harder to see. It’s more energetic and mental. In the therapeutic space we call this the
“Fertile Void”
In Gestalt therapy, the Fertile Void refers to the still, empty space that emerges after letting go of habitual patterns, roles, or identifications.
Though it may feel uncertain or disorienting, this “void” is considered a rich, creative ground—a place of potential where new awareness, choices, and authentic growth can arise. It’s a necessary pause between letting go of the old and embracing the new, allowing transformation to unfold organically.
If we took a poll, I imagine we are all experiencing this together here on #nostr
How cld we not?
You are definitely not alone!
I’m excited to be here along side of you as we fumble forward into this Free Market future!!! 🙌🔥
Let’s leap together!!! 😝
#yestr
#peertopeer
#newroads
#lettinggo