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@ HODL
2025-02-12 16:42:02
I used to lowkey be kind of an alcoholic.
I didn’t drink everyday, but when I did drink (usually once a week) I would binge drink (12-20 drinks).
The thing that got me to stop was realizing that drinking was effecting my brain and emotional health during the periods where I wasn’t drinking.
I went completely sober for about a year and went through a period of depression and anxiety for several months as my brain reset.
I kept getting these waves of repressed emotion. Things I had been burying for 20 years and I’d find myself like randomly crying in the milk aisle at the grocery store lmao 😂
It was only then that I realized why I had been drinking so hard in the first place.
It was me coping with difficult and painful emotions and experiences from childhood.
When I realized that I thought to myself “how fucking weak and pathetic” it was.
I told myself be tough and look your problems in the face.
So I did.
And life got better.