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A while back I shared this note via Nostr: [https://njump.me/a0da4693dc761c649e46606ba4cc11cd05afbed2d7c763775d7ba29a473cbed3](https://njump.me/a0da4693dc761c649e46606ba4cc11cd05afbed2d7c763775d7ba29a473cbed3) > I feel I need to ventilate some things I'm struggling with. As a indiepreneur I don't have many professionals around me with who I can share my daily struggles which I'm handling now. I'm aware it's a sort of a luxury position where the current fricton is coming from. It's because I've said too much yes to some responsabilties. I'm managing 4 client (Drupal) projects at this moment and all of them are asking for decent amount of my attention. Integrating new features, updating existing features, questions how things work, bugfixes etc. Normally their demand of them is steady. But as always, at the end of the year things are stacking up. It's no surprise that you can't manage their demands so it's the expection of my output to them I have to manage. It's the output I create for the value I deliver. Especially one project is getting all of my attention because I'm building a complete new commerce rental system with Drupal for campers. There is a deadline involved there, I've one month left to build it and have it tested. > For me it's very challenging to manage those expectations and basicly saying no to things in a friendly way. But offcourse, this also takes time... > > With this said, there is another project which is not actively demanding anything from me (it's not a kind of a customer client): Nostr-PHP. My work pace on this project is lacking, but it's the damn thing I love the most to work on 💜 > > So what is this? What do I feel? > It feels like cognitive dissonation. If I follow my intrinsic motivation I can work on Nostr-PHP and other Nostr stuff for whole days. If I follow my ratio, it's all the client work what has to be done (and is mostly also paying the bills). > > Anyway, now I ventilated this it's time to go back building stuff ⚒️ ⚒️ ⚒️ > One thing I know of myself is that when the pressure is really high, I'm able to finish stuff rapidly for a short period of time. Since then I made quite some hours on one specific project building out a commerce rental platform with Drupal. Progress is made and I'm already quite proud on the achievements there. Also the client is happy with the results so far. As things evolve and are being tested, new insights popup which result in adjustments in the features made and the wishlist of new features grow. To me that's natural if you're building a custom solution. But this doesn't change the challenge I mentioned earlier, managing expections and decide to what I will spent my attention to. With that said, the development for Nostr-PHP library pretty much halted since december. So I decided to ask OpenSats to pause my grant for 3 months, so I can finish up the client-work without guilty feelings. My plan is to pick up the development again around March. At last, let me sum up the the things I've done in week 48 and 49 in 2024: **Nostr-PHP** * Release 1.5.1 [https://github.com/nostrver-se/nostr-php/releases/tag/1.5.1](https://github.com/nostrver-se/nostr-php/releases/tag/1.5.1) * Thanks for this compliment Prolic (developer of Flutr) [https://njump.me/nevent1qvzqqqqqqypzqwuvj7hf9phszffuf7ydgtgkapvv0jf9zw4l9uuz2xhlwy63f08xqy2hwumn8ghj7un9d3shjtnyv9kh2uewd9hj7qg4waehxw309aex2mrp0yhxummnw3ezucn89uqzp94nzvmh7nlh3qte8g4g2kz075pqy6gz837y0emeqc9m8l4dlpl672l3gr](https://njump.me/nevent1qvzqqqqqqypzqwuvj7hf9phszffuf7ydgtgkapvv0jf9zw4l9uuz2xhlwy63f08xqy2hwumn8ghj7un9d3shjtnyv9kh2uewd9hj7qg4waehxw309aex2mrp0yhxummnw3ezucn89uqzp94nzvmh7nlh3qte8g4g2kz075pqy6gz837y0emeqc9m8l4dlpl672l3gr) * Collaboration efforts on encoding / decoding TLV entries in NIP-19: [https://njump.me/nevent1qvzqqqqqqypzqpnrnguxe8qszsshvgkvhn6qjzxy7xsvx03rlrtddr62haj4lrm3qy2hwumn8ghj7un9d3shjtnyv9kh2uewd9hj7qghwaehxw309aex2mrp0yhxummnw3ezucnpdejz7qpqxh039ng4nr2w5q6np5gzhpfjjgxd4gtkraxeuv9ew5sve7pytawq8l5dzr](https://njump.me/nevent1qvzqqqqqqypzqpnrnguxe8qszsshvgkvhn6qjzxy7xsvx03rlrtddr62haj4lrm3qy2hwumn8ghj7un9d3shjtnyv9kh2uewd9hj7qghwaehxw309aex2mrp0yhxummnw3ezucnpdejz7qpqxh039ng4nr2w5q6np5gzhpfjjgxd4gtkraxeuv9ew5sve7pytawq8l5dzr) * Working on a fix for a lib\_gmp issue with the latest PHP releases: * [https://github.com/nostrver-se/nostr-php/pull/71](https://github.com/nostrver-se/nostr-php/pull/71) * [https://github.com/nostrver-se/nostr-php/issues/75](https://github.com/nostrver-se/nostr-php/issues/75) * [https://github.com/nostrver-se/nostr-php/pull/76](https://github.com/nostrver-se/nostr-php/pull/76) * Merged [https://github.com/nostrver-se/nostr-php/pull/76](https://github.com/nostrver-se/nostr-php/pull/76) and created a `1.5.2` release with this change * [https://github.com/nostrver-se/nostr-php/releases/tag/1.5.2](https://github.com/nostrver-se/nostr-php/releases/tag/1.5.2) **Other stuff** * Wrote and published my second 90-days progress report for OpenSats. [https://nostrver.se/blog/nostr-php-helper-library-90-day-opensats-report-2](https://nostrver.se/blog/nostr-php-helper-library-90-day-opensats-report-2)